Kanika Agrawal

 

from THIS FIGURE IS PURELY DIAGRAMMATIC

 

 





 

This is it

 
 
                            light it
 
 
 
It is in the thicket of this
     Axial sickness—
    
 
 
 
 
          —bodies stripped            
 
 
 
—in shifts
 
 
          —stichic
 
 
 
As reeds
     Read
                the margins
 
 
 
The landings
                       unmade
     & recoded
 
 
 
                            in double light
 
 
 
& the hands
                       their hands
     Meet
                what ends
 
 
 
In one the carrot
     The garrote in one—
 
 
 
Are spent—
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
That it figures itself
     Out
 
 
 
Through a density
                                of entrants
     Freshly indexed
 
 
 
To the junket of movable parts—
 
 
(1) running of the canids
          So canonically
                                    mid-ruin
 
 
(2) handlers wearing their miters
          Down to the joints
 
 
(3) arm-like processes of tracking
          & torque
 
 
(4) lenses in the confidence
          Of motion censors
 
 
(5) live valvular tunings
          To unaccompaniment
 
 
 
 
An operative pallor
     Primps the usual assumptions
 
 
 
What thoughts settle
                                    with what
     Dollish consistency
                                      their somata
                                                             for
 
 
 
The body
                 the yolk
     The body
                      the yoke
 
 
 
What is the matter
     What is it
 
 
 
                            a light
 
                            partition                                
 
 
 
 
 
 
Still the ill slew
                           of the market
     It circles
 
 
 
It enumerates the sequelae
                                               in the after-
     Math of emptied syringes
 
 
 
That the route
                         is refuted
                                           with puncta
     —
 
 
 
 
All lives do
     Not all lives
                          (a)-(c) count
 
 
 
 
 
 
—(dis)appearances are ambient





































                            ektara
 
                            over dim vocalizations
 
 
 
The court is metered
                                    in pages
     The defendants
                                 are thumbed
 
 
 
They speak of the acts
     Not already spoken for
 
 
 
Its own speech acts
     Acquit it
 
 
 
It follows their hands
     Being tied 
                        behind the nation’s back
 
 
 
Behind the hands
     Hands
                  in hindsight
 
 
 
Infinite regress of the corpo-
     Real
               in real
                           time
 
 
 
                                                                                                             That they sit on the coals of the earth
                                                                                                                                   at the very mouth of hell
                                                                                                                   That when they die and go to hell
                                                                                                                          they come back for a blanket
                                                                                                                                                                       
(6)
 
 
 
They look the part   
                                they look
     Like something else
 
 
 
                                                                                                                                        It looks like no one—
 
 
 
There is a hold
                           on them
     Theirs
                  is a holding pattern
                                                    of speech—
 
 
 
 

     —
 
 
 
 
                                                                                                                                 And the real joke of it is—
                                                                                                                                                                       
(7)
 
 
 
 
Hold on
 
 
 
 
 
 
It is folding time
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
The optics
     Are eidetic



























 
                                                                                                                                                                        (8)
                                                                                                                                           Affecting or relating
                                                                                                                      to a circle or number of persons
                                                                                                                                                  In circular letter
                          a letter directed to several persons who have the same interest in some common affair
 
 
 
A practice
                  of carapace
     As the active tense
                                      of the captive
 
 
 
If integument
                        is argument
     Against another body
 
 
 
Or extension—
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
What sur-
                 vives the difference
     In life
 
 
 
What gets
                  to come
     Over
               it
 
 
 
                            alight
 
 
 
As it (e)merges
     Into perspective
 
 
 
It rounds the o
                          of an ongoing
     Hanging
 
 
 
Uncounted faces
                              demonetized
     & dropped
                         from the public branch
 
 
 
The headless dream
     Of millinery
 
 
 
          —pinned—
 
 
 
Adornment
     & the (fl)oral passage
                                         of rights
 
 
 
It takes a trunk call—
                                    a reminder—
     The word was the first
                                            accessory—
 
 
 
To record the bodies
     On the line
 
 
 
They say watch
                            the villains kite
                                                       in the current
     Verbal commons
 
 
 
They say catch
                           the rolling heads
                                                         of statistics
     & operations in conversation
 
 
 
Follow the circulation
 
 
 
                            a string
 
 
 
                            a ringing
 
                            light
 
 
 
In time
              it will have seen
     This before
 
 
 
Enter repeatedly
     Recognized
                           as inter
 
 
 
The characteristic residue
     On each chain
 
 
 
How long
     Does it
                   go on
 
 
 
It depends
                    on a number of actors                                        
     Or will—
                  
 
 
The facts unanchor—
 
 
 
 
 
 
                                                                                                                                                                        (9)
                                                                                                                             Of or pertaining to the circle
                                                                                                                          or its mathematical properties
                                                                                                                                                In circular points
                                                                the two imaginary points at infinity through which all circles pass
 
 
 
 
 
 
When they recall—
 
 
 
They say all
                      the best
     Thinking
                      is collapsarian
 

 

Kanika Agrawal is an Indian citizen and hybrid specimen raised in six
countries on four continents. She studied biology at MIT and creative
writing at Columbia University and the University of Denver. Her work
appears or is forthcoming in Best American Experimental Writing 2020,
Black Warrior Review, filling Station, Foglifter, Notre Dame Review, SAND,
and various SF&F publications. Her chapbook Okazaki Fragments will
be published in 2020 by Oversound.

 

Notes:

The phrase “This figure is purely diagrammatic” comes from the following paper,
in which Watson and Crick first proposed a double helix structure for DNA:
Watson, J. D., and F. H. C. Crick. “Molecular Structure of Nucleic Acids: A Structure
of Deoxyribose Nucleic Acid.” Nature, vol. 171, no. 4356, 1953, pp. 737-8.

Some lines in italics are quoted or adapted from:
“circular, adj. and n.” OED Online, Oxford University Press, June 2019,
         www.oed.com/viewdictionaryentry/Entry/33219. Accessed 24 June 2019.

Rulfo, Juan. Pedro Páramo. 1955. Translated by Margaret Sayers Peden, Grove, 1994.